Blessed

I genuinely feel very blessed. Just being away from 4 months and to all those people who had gone through the extra mile to make me feel the love from miles away, I really feel very fortunate. I am very clear that there was no NEED to do what you all are doing. But just the thought of all the things, big or small, that family and friends do really touches me a lot. Although I dont really show it but I feel so contented, so satisfied right now. For all those people who are doing what they are doing now, just proves that i must have been doing something right all these while.

I really wanna thank loverboy very much for giving me such a pleasant surprise when he said he would be coming. He told me on wed and he would be coming on that saturday. I was so happy but I didnt dare to hold any hopes up for fear that it would only be a disappointment. But he made it happen. It must have been hard for him to convince his parents to let him come. It must have been tiring to travel 12 hours here and bring many goodies for me. He came for 10 days. That 10 days will be so special to me for the rest of my life. I think I only have one big wish in this life and that's to travel the world with him. After I do that, I can seriously leave this world w no regrets. That's the one thing I want. Not fame, not fortune, not power. Just him and the world in my memories. He came for 10 days. For 10 days he didnt have to but he did and for that, I can already cry. So silly, I always knew I felt really blessed and happy but never to the extent like now that when I think of all the actions and thoughts that I feel so contented.

Also wanna give a major big hug to hotstuff. For her whatsapp messages EVERY SINGLE DAY w/o fail! She whatsapp me more than lb does! haha! Giving encouraging words all the time. And her unbelievable parcel deliveries. I feel so blessed that day when I collected my first parcel. I brought the parcel along w me when i went for project work. I was so excited to just tear it apart but I waited eagerly for the meeting to pass. I felt like a kid again. A kid on a day of "show and tell" in primary school. I wanted to show everyone the parcel I got. Not to rub it anyone's face or be cocky about but simply because I couldnt contain that happiness inside of me i just had to let it out by telling people. And you have no idea how wide my smile was everytime someone asked me" oh, what's that?" (': I am really happy that despite being away from her, we actually got closer and now we can talk about ANYTHING under the sun. Even personal things I used to keep to myself. Somehow somewhere, we just got closer. I dont wanna go to bother wondering how it happened because it did and I feel blessed. I am v glad I managed to introduce her to my friend and they hit it off so well, I wont be surprised if they got married. No kidding. Nevertheless, she did all those things. Yet she didnt have to.

I have my family to thank for too. Firstly my dad who dropped by for 5 days to help me settle down. I know by the 2nd week i would already have settled down more or less and his visit was more because he misses me. I knew from the way he pushed my hair behind my ear at the airport on my departure date that he would miss me a lot more than I thought he would. He gave me awesome cooking skills that is helping me to survive now and also the opportunity to give lb a good meal. (Satisfied w the thought that lb loves the food or chicken to be specific. Makes me so happy when he says it's good.) He sponsored my expenses that helped to make my stay as comfortable as possible. He came after a business trip and I know he was really tired. He did all that but he didnt have to.

I also love my aunt for her weekly emails writing about little reminders here and there and asking if I need anything etc. She brings home closer to me. Every single week w/o fail. Sometimes her emails can be long, sometimes it can be short. But I love writing to her even though my week is jam packed. Really miss ranting to her verbally and her spoiling me with little treats like food, allowance etc. Above all, I miss her voice and her small little gestures of assurance that I can do it.

I know Im not forgotten when in the 28kg luggage my dad brings over contain random DVDs that my brother and his gf bought for me. To keep me occupied when im lonely or relaxing or just need a little break. Actually it's the best entertainment by far. (esp when youtube deleted the owner who usually post survivor and antm, bintm, ausntm etc online. WTH! BINTM IS LAST EP AND I WANNA WATCH >:() So you have no idea how awesome my brother's DVDs are.

I am still eagerly waiting for parcel number 2 from hotstuff filled w even more love. I might cry because I cry more easily w touching letters/handmade stuff. And this time I know she's doing those. Also, mum's arrival on 12 dec (Y) And then family trip around europe again! And then going home to see lb again. Of course, I can never forget the chance to meet debbs and PGD. So many things to look forward to and keeping me motivated.

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Other vids coming soon. Going to sweden this weekend! Vi ses!