I'm so stressed now :( And to be honest, i do NOT KNOW WHY. I seriously dont. how lame is that?! Actually maybe I do, just that I cant pin point on one exact point. Normally less than 2 weeks to exams, you never catch me blogging please! I will be like in my room mugging my brains out. But im so stressed and I dont know how else to vent my stress and i rmb my blog. I used to blog everyday from secondary school. Long entries about my day and I HAD to blog, if not i felt weird. Like everyday after school the first thing i do is to blog about my daily activities. Which for some strange reason, people were interested to read. Now thinking back, im wondering who in their right mind will want to read my life in details. But i was surprised. I knew people read my blog in secondary school. But in JC, i found out seniors whom i didnt know read my blog. I found out people talk about my blog. I have no idea for what actually. I guess they were too bored. And i was so embarrassed because I talked about one of my group leaders and he found out through other seniors and asked about it. And i just mentioned "i think i know him from somewhere..." and he asked me about it. awkward muchhhhh. And I know many others read my blog and i think from then on, i blogged less because it was kinda weird to have random people reading my blogs. And now? I dont give a crap who reads. it's my rant place (Y)
I am stressed with exams. More the anxiety about exams approaching than the actual exams. It's like sitting on a rollar coaster and you're at the point that the ride is slowly bringing you up to the peak in a very extremely slow sadistic way. and when exams come it's like the plunge you get all the way down. It's scary, it's fast, you just wish it'll be over and you'll be fine. that's exactly how it is.
I am more stressed with staying alone. I have to do everything myself suddenly. And I dont know if it's the cold weather but the cold weather i experience every single day just reminds me im in a foreign country and right now I JUST CANT WAIT TO BE HOME. No offence, i love this place. but i really just wanna go home right now :'( I dont care if i have to deal with a more stressful education. It's better than being here, really. Just want to go home...
and i always camwhore when im stressed. Or I have many ways of destressing.
okay, i take that back. I dont want winter in spore. I hate winter. I prefer to wear shorts and slippers/palms/heels. All of that is impractical. I get to wear my dr mart boots and ugg boots in winter but.. that's about it? Just boots. how boring!
NOT. Im having a WAR now.
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